- HR person was kind of unnecessarily bitchy to me. I was there to fill out paperwork for something I'm already a little uncomfortable with, and she made it worse. I may sit on the paper work for a while. Sitting on it will only hurt me in the long run but I don't want to see HR person to re-turn it in for at least a week.
- My main project for the next month got postponed due to politics. Relatedly, my pay may also be delayed due to politics.
- As a result of my main project being delayed, I have to return to the project I thought I was done with (and have been focusing on non-stop for months) - and frankly, I'm just burnt out on it.
- People who have no sense of obligation to meet their basic job requirements that screw my shit up seem to surround me
- I haven't been working out and no badgering, begging, deciding, or bribing seems to be working to get me back in the gym. I feel guilty and I'm not nice to me about being a lazy ass. Kinda a double whammy.
- I'm tired of having to put a damn jacket every time I want to go outside.
- I'm tired of having to make small talk with people in the elevator for 10 floors at 6am when I am only there to walk the dog - repeat at 11pm.
- Just want PC to have a job. I used to want him to have a job he liked, now I'd just like him to be employed. I think. Ok, maybe it's more that I'm just tired of him having to go through the job hunting part because we inevitably argue.
- I find that even though we can afford to live in a snobby place, that I'm actually out snobbed by those around me - and I'm tired of feeling not good enough when I pay an assload of money to live here. I'm equally annoyed with those that are too good to talk to me in the elevator as those that think we need to be best friends for 20 seconds at 6am.
- I want to go shopping. I haven't gone shopping because I feel fat but I'm not (weirdly maintaining low weight despite not working out) and I feel like I should not be extravagant when we're living on one salary but it doesn't seem fair to not be able to shop with my income...and so the circular thinking goes
- I'm eerily pale. I didn't even know this kind of pale existed. I don't know when I'll be able to wear shorts ever again with this damn cold. I dread future self's sun burn knowing that future future self is going to hate future self for the wrinkles and cancer.
- I get to start telecommuting next week because I hit my 6 month mark here. My boss is weary of the days I picked to telecommute because more than half the office is out that day too - why do I have to be there if no one else is and why do they get to pick that day but I have no say? Just because I am last? And, if some of them leave, do I get to move my day or does some random new person get that day?
- I'm tired of my boss being beat down by the system. Not only does it make me feel beat down, but I have no one to depend on to push back to senior management to get things done.
- No one in my organization actually cares about what I do. It's hard to keep getting so worked up about the horrors that I'm hear to solve when they're more interested in cutting the data a little different to make everything look ok.
- It's hard to have a career you're passionate about when you're considered a luxury (at best) or an annoying fly (at worst) in most organizations.
- I seem to be one of the few people that likes their job and believes that people have the best of intentions. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm a fool.
- I feel like I'm falling behind professionally because I've not published anything and have no conference presentations in the works. Yet, I don't have the energy to do what is actually one of the most time consuming mind numbing activities in academic life - formatting for a submission. How ridiculous is it that I have an article ready to go for the last 6 months if only I'd change the format?
- My 6 month anniversary here at new job was pretty anti-climatic.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Willing to eat anything that has cheese, grease, or liquor in it
I think I have SAD. I can objectively say nothing went terribly wrong today, but I'm pretty much ready to lay around, eat anything that has cheese grease Chinese and or liquor in it, and be grouchy. Here's just a few of the things going on in my head this evening in no particular order.
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Ah, the joy of the cold. Every winter in my city (ahem, we had the Olympics here last year to give you a clue ;)), 1/2 the people give up, stay indoors and run away from the cold, the wet, and well, when we get snow (which isn't that often below the mountain area). I have a few friends who have been diagnosed with SAD and they end up going tanning once a week for a very short time, and take vitamin D pills. I started taking the vit D and honestly, HUGE difference in my attitude. When you don't see the sun as often for months on end, it's depressing - but you have to find fun things to do instead. Since there isn't a lot of snow here - I personally run in the rain. I hate it, but it's actually pretty nice once you have the gear (hat etc). If you live by mountains, go up there, usually more sun as you're out of the cloud-line, and snowshoe or something (again, I do this, it's quite fun!).
ReplyDeleteWork, well, work is unfortuantely where we spend a majority of our time.
My job has the most highs and lows than I ever thought I could at a job. Being more invested f**ks up emotions in a big way - which probably isn't helping by your lack of sunshine.
Go shopping, if you are still able to afford it even though the boyfriend may not. Do something fun for the two of you even if he's feeling slightly umcomfy at his reliance on you. You're a team, and obviously you're wanting to enjoy some of this and I don't blame you. Find something that brings joy to both of you.
K gives good advice. And I second the Vit. D thing. Anytime I forget to take it for a few days in a row I realize what a difference it does make. Husband and I both take it now and it seems to help him too.
ReplyDeleteI forgot about the vitamin D recommendation but just started on B. Um, and sunning rooftop in my building now that it's warmer.
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